Why is it that I still always have bad days and night❓
Why do I still feel overwhelmed by grief❓
Have I not shown bereavement my full mettle❓
What is it that sets these times off❓
Is it worrying over the children❓
Why is it that G cries in his sleep AGAIN (at the same time when I am seeing you in my dream)❓ - and then he wakes up and cries even more and says "I'm scared and upset"❗️
Why is it that J cries like a baby to not have had you longer❓
Why she can't be like her friends whose daddy's come to pick them up from school❓
Why is it that I have a huge wave of sadness and utter helplessness when I see the kids upset❓
Why does my kids have to say goodnight to Daddy through the window while looking into the sky❓
Why can't they simply kiss him and snuggled him as they go off to sleep❓
Why isn't he here to support us; love us; protect us; call us silly names and annoyance with his teasing❓